Fear of the night

Your eyes so souless and colorless

A malevolent nonentity

Frozen to the ground

Im painted with whats warm and red mixed with black and blue

You left me lifless and without a fight

Your an insidious demon that drained every inch of love trust that i had left that use to beat within my chest

When I hear your name

I grab my throat gasping for air

I fall to my knees

as scream for help

But there is no sound

Left on the ground and cannot move

Because of you i fear the night

Ill miss you until then

When i see an ember among a fire in the crackling on the wood

Ill wish on every star that your safe and sound until i see you again

I will smile knowing that your smiling too

But will cry because im not part of your happieness

Ill just be a faint memory to you

Ill see you again sooner than you think but longer than i know

To the moon and back and to an infinity and beyond

Ill miss you until then my tiny best friend

This poem is dedicated to my daughter Ember Michelle who i chose to do whats best and gave her up for adoption

If i said good bye

If i said good bye today

Walked away and disappeared

Would you miss my hair the way you love to run your fingers thru every strand

Would you miss my blue eyes

The ones you look into when we lye face to face

Or would it be my lips you kiss leaving me breathless

My neck that makes me hot electrifying every inch of my body

Would you miss the heart beatingin my chest

My lower back with the dimples at the bottom of my spine

The arm you rub ur fingernails against keeping me calm

Or the hand you hold that lets me know everythings ok andnthat you are there

If i were to walk away what would you miss?

Broken

It took some time

Little by little

I thought this time i could finally make it thru

They found what ment the most

Took it away piece by piece

After it was gone

I felt comfortably numb

I will never be the same

I hope thier happy because i look like im the one insane